The voices crashed into her mind like relentless waves, sharp, brutal, and merciless. Each syllable etched itself into her skin, digging deeper, deeperâuntil she couldn't tell if she was bleeding or if it was just the weight of their words suffocating her.
âWhy are you overreacting?â
âAre you eating, or should I throw this all out?â
âAre you pregnant? Is that why you didnât get your periods? I mean, you stay awake till lateâwho knows what you do roaming around the house?â
Aira clutched her head, fingers gripping her hair so tight her scalp burned. The voices wouldnât stop. They never stopped.
âCanât you do one thing right?â
âLoser, loser, loser.â
âYou were the one who taught me, and now Iâm defeating you! Haha!â
Her breath hitched, lungs tightening like a vice as the cruel laughter echoed, surrounding her in the suffocating walls of her memories.
âIf you're behaving like this now, God knows how youâll treat us when you get successful.â
âIf you get successful, youâll treat us like some piece of shit.â
âYou can never win against me.â
âEw, youâre stinking.â
âWhy are you always calling me? Mom this, Mom thatâI have other work too. Iâm tired of all this!â
The walls felt like they were closing in, a crushing weight pressing down on her chest, suffocating her, squeezing the air from her lungs. She gaspedâdesperate for relief, desperate for a moment of silence.
âCanât you take a stand for yourself?â
âWhy canât you fight for yourself? Youâre not a kid anymore!â
âHe is just twelve! How can you expect him to do everything on his own?â
âLet him be. He must be tired.â
âYouâre a girl, and he is a boy. Stop comparing yourself to him! Everything we own belongs to him, but you? You have nothing. You have to earn everything on your own.â
âHe is a boy. Thereâs no need for him to learn house chores. But you? Youâre going to be someone elseâs daughter-in-law.â
âSir, donât scold herâsheâll tell her mom! Haha!â
âShe is so egoistic.â
âWhy does she have such an attitude?â
âYouâre a girlâyou canât have such a bad temper.â
SLAP
Aira flinched, the phantom sting of the slap burning across her cheek, though there was no one there. Just the shadows, just the memories, clawing at her skin.
âWhy canât you speak in public?â
Her breath grew ragged. Her vision blurred. The walls of the bathroom tilted, her body lurching forward as she lost control over her limbs. Her muscles locked up, stiff and unyielding, like a corpse frozen in time.
She wasnât breathing.
She couldnât breathe.
Her throat closed.
A choked sob tore from her lips, but no one could hear her. She curled into herself, pressing her hands against her ears, trying to shut out the voices, the echoes, the taunts that had never left her mind.
But it was too late.
The panic attack had seized her.
Cold sweat drenched her body, her nightclothes sticking to her trembling frame. Her hands turned clammy, her skin icy to the touch. Her chest burnedâtoo tight, too painfulâas though something had reached inside and squeezed her lungs in a merciless grip.
Her heart pounded violently, the rhythm irregular, frantic, terrifying.
A shiver ran down her spine, her body convulsing slightly as her breath came in short, desperate gasps. She couldnât think. She couldnât move. The world blurred into a mess of darkness and distant voices.
âPlease stop it... Iâm okay... everything is fineâŠâ
Her own voice was nothing but a trembling whisperâa lie she didnât even believe herself.
Her fingers dug into the bathroom tiles, gripping onto something, anything, as if the cold floor could anchor her back to reality. But nothing helped.
âItâs hurting... pleaseâŠâ
Tears slipped from her eyes, sliding down her temples, pooling into her hair as she lay motionless on the floor. Her body felt foreign, disconnected, like she was trapped inside someone elseâs skin.
She felt small.
She felt weak.
She felt... like nothing.
And thenâher body gave up.
Her limbs slumped, chest still rising and falling in shallow, uneven breaths. The tension in her muscles eased, but it wasnât relief. It was exhaustion.
Her mind finally surrendered to the darkness, her eyes fluttering shut as she drifted into unconsciousness, letting the panic attack consume her completely.
---
Raghuvanshi Mansion
The grand Raghuvanshi Mansion stood tall in its regal presence, its walls holding decades of legacy, pride, and unspoken emotions. The vast hall, illuminated by the golden glow of chandeliers, bore witness to yet another crucial family gathering.
Everyone sat in a semi-circle, their gazes fixed on Pandit Ji, the elderly priest who had been summoned to determine an auspicious date for Yunay and Airaâs engagement. The air buzzed with quiet anticipation, the weight of decisions and expectations settling over them.
It had been two weeks since their visit to the Deshmukh household. Aira, initially resistant, had taken an entire week before finally agreeing to the marriage. Her acceptance had not come easilyâit had been a battle of emotions, one she had lost to circumstances.
Meanwhile, Yunayâs grandmother remained in the hospital. Though she had finally regained consciousness, her frail state still demanded constant care. When she was informed about the engagement, shock had flickered in her aged eyes, but knowing that the decision had been initiated by Yunay himself, she chose silence over opposition. Her heart wasnât entirely pleased with the suddenness of it all, yet for her grandsonâs sake, she kept her reservations to herself.
The priest, seated cross-legged on the carpet, flipped through his aged almanac, his fingers tracing the faded Sanskrit letters with practiced precision. A moment later, he looked up, his voice breaking the stillnessâ
âNext week, there is a good mahurat.â
All eyes instantly shifted to Yunay. A barely perceptible nod was his only response.
âOn which day?â Samarth asked, his deep voice resonating through the hall.
âFriday,â Pandit Ji replied, his tone firm with certainty.
There were no protests. A collective nod signaled agreement, though Yunay barely seemed interested, his focus still absorbed in his phone.
With a practiced gesture of respect, Pandit Ji pressed his palms together and slightly bowed, bidding farewell to the family. Everyone reciprocated his respectful departure as he took his leave.
Yunay, too, was about to walk away when Divyaâs voice halted him in his tracks.
âYunay, Dhitya wants to go shopping. Go with her.â
Yunay turned to look at his sister, but before he could respond, Dhitya interjected, shaking her head.
âItâs fine, Bhai. Iâll take a bodyguard with me.â
Just as her words left her mouth, a sharp smack landed on her arm.
âOuch!â Dhitya winced, glaring at Nirvigh, who stood beside her, looking absolutely unapologetic.
Yunay and Divya merely shook their heads at the siblings' antics, while Samarth, their father, stepped in with his own form of disciplineâhis large hand reaching out to tug Nirvighâs ear.
âAhh! Papa!â Nirvigh yelped in pain, his eyes shutting closed as he tried to escape. âIt wasnât even that serious!â
Samarth merely raised a brow, waiting for the inevitable apology. Nirvigh, seeing no way out, sighed dramatically before giving in to his fatherâs authority.
âSorry, Dhitya,â he muttered, rubbing his sore ear.
Satisfied, Samarth let go, but not before delivering one final smack on Nirvighâs head.
Laughter erupted in the hall. Dhitya and Divya chuckled openly, while Yunay, ever composed, stood thereâhis face devoid of amusement. Expressionless. Unaffected.
After a beat, he finally spoke.
âYou have two brothers. Why would you go with a bodyguard?â
His statement immediately shifted the atmosphere.
Nirvigh, sensing an opportunity to align with his elder brother, smirked and swiftly moved to stand beside him.
âThatâs what I was saying!â Nirvigh exclaimed, nodding enthusiastically.
But Yunay was not so easily fooled. His sharp gaze pinned his younger brother in place.
âYou didnât say anything. You just smacked her.â
Dhitya, feeling vindicated, bobbed her head in agreement.
Nirvigh, ever the dramatic one, puffed out his cheeks, lips curving downward like a scolded child.
âBhai, itâs the same thing.â
He pouted his lips further, making himself look like a sulking kid who had been unjustly punished. But Yunayâs expression did not soften. Not even slightly.
Realizing there was no winning against Yunayâs piercing stare, Nirvigh huffed in frustration, stomping his foot like a petulant child before dramatically turning his back.
âBhai,â Dhitya spoke up again, her voice calm yet firm. âNirvigh Bhai has a shift in two hours. And youâre also exhaustedâyou came back late last night. Itâs fine, Iâll go on my own. Iâm taking a bodyguard with me, so donât worry. You should get some rest.â
Yunay exhaled sharply, shaking his head in disapproval.
Before he could object, Divya chimed in.
âSheâs right, Yunay. You should rest. You also have to visit the hospital tonight, remember? Maa Ji wants to meet you.â
Yunayâs gaze shifted toward Samarth, his fatherâs calm but firm nod sealing the decision.
He let out a sighâa rare admission of exhaustion.
Without another word, Yunay turned and walked toward his room, his broad shoulders carrying the weight of responsibilities he never asked for but still bore without complaint.
Nirvigh followed suit, heading to his room to prepare for his work shift.
Meanwhile, Dhitya embraced her mother tightly before stepping out for her shopping.
As the commotion settled, Divya and Samarth exchanged a knowing glance before heading toward the kitchen. Their hands moved in quiet coordination, packing a tiffin box for Sarasvati Dadi, ensuring that the warmth of home accompanied her even in the sterile, lonely confines of the hospital.
The Raghuvanshi household, despite its grandeur, remained a web of unspoken emotions, responsibilities, and sacrificesâsome noticed, some overlooked, but all deeply felt.
---
Deshmukh House
Lakshay arrived home much earlier than usual. Normally, he wouldnât step foot inside until evening, but today, as the clock barely ticked past the afternoon, he was already here. His sudden arrival sent a wave of surprise through the household. Nisha, who was busy dusting the furniture, stopped mid-motion when she heard his voice calling out to her.
She turned around to head toward the hall, but before she could take a step, Lakshay was already there, standing with an unusual air of urgency around him. His face, though composed, carried a hint of anticipation.
âSamarth Raghuvanshiâs call,â he informed her, his tone sharp, laced with an eagerness he barely concealed. He gestured for her to come closer.
Nisha did as signaled, positioning herself in front of him while he picked up the call and put it on speaker. His voice, instantly shifting into a tone of excessive warmth, carried a desperate kind of enthusiasm.
âNamaste, Raghuvanshi ji,â Lakshay greeted, his voice almost dripping with forced joy, as if hoping to impress the man on the other end.
On the other side, Samarth Raghuvanshi wasted no time on unnecessary pleasantries. His voice was firm, commanding, and straight to the point.
âNamaste, Lakshay ji. I actually called to inform you about the engagement date. The pandit has suggested next week's Friday as an auspicious day. I know we didnât consult you before deciding, but I donât suppose youâll have any problem with it, will you?â
His words were a statement more than a question, his tone making it clear that Lakshayâs opinion on the matter was inconsequential.
Lakshay, already accustomed to playing the role of an obedient subordinate in front of more powerful men, let out a nervous chuckle.
âNo, no! We have no problem at all! The sooner, the better, right?â His voice wavered with an eagerness that bordered on desperation.
Samarth exhaled slowly, rubbing his temple. He wasnât blindâhe could hear the greed behind Lakshayâs voice, sense the hunger for status disguised as enthusiasm. If it werenât for Yunay, he would never have entertained dealing with such people.
âMy manager will inform you about the engagement details and share the venue information. I have work to attend to, so Iâll be hanging up now. You must be busy too, right?â Samarthâs voice carried a subtle hint of mockery, as if testing Lakshayâs self-awareness.
âYes, yes! Of course, right!â Lakshay responded hastily, not wanting to risk saying anything that could be perceived as disagreement.
Samarth merely hummed in response before cutting the call, the line going dead before Lakshay could utter another word.
As soon as the call ended, Lakshay released a breath he hadnât realized he was holding, his chest rising and falling rapidly. It was as if he had been holding his breath the entire conversation, afraid that one wrong word might shatter everything.
Nisha, standing beside him, crossed her arms. Her face was scrunched in disapproval, her brows furrowed in irritation.
âDonât you think he was being too rude?â she remarked, her voice tinged with annoyance. Her eyes narrowed, jaw tightening as she replayed Samarthâs curt words in her mind.
Lakshay sighed, his patience thinning.
âTheyâre powerful people. Men like him see people like us as dirt in society. We should be grateful that theyâre even forming a relationship with us,â he said, his voice laced with both admiration and resignation.
But Nisha wasnât convinced. With an irritated huff, she stomped away, returning to her cleaning, muttering under her breath about arrogance and high-handedness.
Lakshay, however, was too busy basking in his own thoughts to pay attention to his wifeâs complaints. His lips curled into a small smirk as he leaned back, arms crossed over his chest.
This marriage was more than just a weddingâit was his golden ticket.
After all these years of struggling to climb the social ladder, of fighting for a shred of respect, of being overlooked and dismissed by the so-called elite, finallyâfinallyâthings were falling into place.
After this marriage, he wouldnât just be Lakshay Deshmukh. He would be Raghuvanshiâs in-law.
His name would carry weight. His reputation would soar. People who once looked down on him would bow their heads in acknowledgment. He could already picture the shiftâthe way people would speak to him with newfound reverence, the way doors that were previously shut would swing open.
And to think, all this was happening because of her.
His daughter.
The same ill-mannered, disobedient brat who had always been a thorn in his side. The girl who had no sense of respect, who consistently defied him, who thought she was too good for the rules set for her.
But for onceâjust this onceâshe had done something right.
Not by her intelligence, of course. She wasnât smart enough to plan something like this. But she had still, somehow, managed to entangle a rich man in her web.
âMaybe she inherited at least a sliver of my brain after all,â he mused to himself, before shaking his head.
No, actuallyâshe had no brain.
If she had, she wouldnât have been stupid enough to reject the proposal in front of everyone.
That had been her biggest mistakeâone that could have ruined everything.
If it werenât for him stepping in at the right moment, all of this could have slipped through his fingers. He couldnât allow that. Not when he was this close to achieving everything he had ever wanted.
His jaw tightened.
He would have to keep a close eye on her.
Aira was reckless, emotional. She was foolish enough to ruin everything over some silly notion of self-respect or personal choice. He couldnât let that happen.
This marriage wasnât about herâit was about him.
His future. His reputation. His place in society.
And he wouldnât let his daughterâhis foolish, naive daughterâmess it all up.
With that thought lingering in his mind, Lakshay leaned back, a calculating gleam in his eyes.
Everything had to go as planned. No mistakes.
Not this time.
---
Unaware of everything, Aira sat in her cabin after finishing a surgery. Her job was the only thing that made her feel worthyâafter all the childhood traumas, she had spent years feeling nothing but useless.
Whenever she saved a life, and the patientâs family expressed their gratitude, she felt a little better. A little less empty. In those moments, she wasnât just Aira, the girl who had been made to feel unwantedâshe was a savior. Her existence mattered. Maybe not much, but at least somewhere in the universe, it held some value, even if it was just the tiniest fraction of percentage.
She leaned back in her chair, resting her hands on the armrests, legs casually placed on the desk. Closing her eyes, she let the quiet of the cabin wash over her, searching for a moment of peace.
But peace was impossible these days.
For the past few weeks, a single thought had been haunting herâIshaan. The lover boy. It had been weeks since their last conversation, and ever since that night, everything had stopped. No flower bouquets, no love letters, no small gifts or surprise food deliveries. She hadnât seen him, hadnât felt his presence around her the way she once did.
She had told herself it shouldnât matter. That she didnât love him. But habit was a dangerous thing, and she had grown used to his presence, his persistence, his unwavering care. Apart from her best friend, he was the only one who had ever made her feel cherished.
And now that it is gone... it hurt.
A lone tear slipped from her eye, a soft sob escaping her lips. He was the only one who treated me like his world revolved around nothing but me...
If only he wasnât what he wasâa mafia. If only he had tried to convince her parents instead of pushing her to choose him, maybe things would have been different.
At least she would have married a man who loved her. A man she knew.
But look at her nowâbeing forced into marriage with a total stranger. She didnât even know if this man liked her. Didnât know what kind of person he was, how he would treat her, or what his intentions were.
But Ishaan? She knew him. She knew he would never hurt her. She knew he would have respected her.
A fresh wave of guilt and sorrow hit her.
âI'm sorry, Ishaan. I'm really sorry. I just pray you find someone who will give you all the love you deserve... please forgive me.â
Her body trembled as she broke down, memories of that night flooding her mind.
For the first time in her life, someone had loved her with everything they had. And what had she done?
She had broken him.
Shattered his heart.
Destroyed his hopes.
Stabbed him with her words and actions.
Her chest ached as images of him filled her mindâhis smile whenever he saw her, the way his eyes lit up, his gentle yet playful nature. His stubbornness, his refusal to give up on her... yet always keeping his distance, never crossing a boundary, making sure his presence didnât make her uncomfortable.
Despite his persistence, he had always left when she asked him to.
Despite his dominance, he had apologized every single day, worried that something he did might have hurt her.
He had done everything for herâthings she never thought she would get from anyone.
And yet, she had rejected him.
It was hard, but it was the only choice.
She couldnât afford the shame her family would throw at her for loving someone. And more than that, she never wanted Ishaan to hear the dagger-like words of her parents.
To him, she had been ethereal.
And she never wanted him to regret thinking of her that way.
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